Saturday, May 18, 2013


A nurse caring for ppl at the ends of their lives, did a study...
to find the top 5 regrets ppl had when looking back over their lifetime.
The number one regret, I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me...  is what interests me...and it is why I am sooo happy to be now living, saying, dreaming, experiencing, DOING what I want and what makes me happy...FINALLY!! 

I'm sorry if ppl don't care for the fact that i am exploring an earth-based religion rather than swallowing whats been spoon-fed all my life...
and I'm sorry if the things I'm enjoying and doing now make me "weird" in the eyes of my kids...
I will go to my grave with a smile, knowing I did what was fun, what I wanted to experience...
dance like no one's looking, 
sing in front of a crowd and be proud even if my voice sucks, 
walk barefoot in the dirt, 
and soak up the sun in my own way, 
go "fanatical" with fruits and veggies, 
drum in a circle connecting to another level of my consciousness, 
help kids achieve dreams, 
hang out with artists and musicians, and ppl who feel like I do...
feel the same spirit of creativity... 
lend a hand to others in need,
or soak myself in fake blood and be a zombie in a movie...

Number one on this list of regrets will NEVER be me anymore...and i'm sorry, but i'm very proud of that! **PEACE**
A palliative nurse recorded the most common regrets of the dying and put her findings into a book called ‘The Top Five Regrets of The Dying.’ It’s not surprising to see what made the list as they are all things that touch each of our lives as we struggle to pay attention to and make [...]

Friday, May 17, 2013

Second Time Around (to two girls)

You loved him,
                         you "said"
                      I loved you too...
                  (i misjudge a lot; i guess,
                      i'm easily drawn
                 to tie up my heart strings
                       with others')

                       you hurt him, 
                          and me.
                      he hurt you too.
               (i didnt know all of it; i guess,
                      i'm easily fooled
                into issues of heart-feelings
                         by others)

                        You love him,
                          I know it.
                  I'm scared to love you too...
                 (it's hard to trust; i guess,
                        but I need to,
                  even if my heart's afraid
                         of others)

                         I love you
                          you know... 
                    I hope that's safe too...
                 (I don't want to hurt i guess,
                    but we need to trust,
                even if our hearts are afraid
                         of others)

                  -Kathleen M. Quinn-Farber


The hardest,

most stinging

slap in the face,

is when you get angry due to an 


then realize

your own negligence

brought it upon you.

This is

the true motivation

for change...

-Kathleen M.Quinn-Farber

The hardest, most stinging slap in the face, is when you get angry due to an occurrence, then realize your own negligence brought it upon you. This is the true motivation for change...

Thursday, May 16, 2013


What I look at,
what I see,
its not you anyway.
why does it twist a knife?
I guess love is weird
that way.
You have no clue;
I can't explain;
you will never be who you were...
its all gone.
you live in the past,
a fantasy;
you dont see who loved you...
who laid down their life
for you.
You see things through
a kaleidoscope...
pieces of real amongst a sea
of false;
I see it through
a prism
divided into slices of reality...
the only common thread
being our love
but lost forever.....

-K.M.Q.Farber 5/16/13

Monday, May 6, 2013


You held me back.
Because you were lost,
you tried to keep me lost
as well.
You didn't know that what I learned
could have helped us both.
Marriage...a supposed equal effort
was not.
I spent my time trying to save you,
while no one was trying to save me.
And I died just a little
every day.
All I wanted was to be me;
to follow my heart, my dreams,
my instincts,
wherever life was leading...
But I was not allowed.
You would not let me.
I had to commit life
as though it were
a crime.
How sad.
And now,
no one may ever get the chance
to support me with that, again,
because you betrayed my trusting heart.

-Kathleen Marie Quinn-Farber 


There's a world above the world;
one I've caught in fleeting glimpses
that I've seen from time to time
over the years
from people I'd thought to be
perhaps a tad crazed.
Things they would say...
(Mom always taught me to keep a firm foothold in reality)
But whose reality is the true one?
Will the real Johnny please stand up?
Do you think what your eyes see
is all that there is?
Have you tried feeling with your heart,
and with your soul,
rather than your so-called rational mind?
With the skin over your flesh even?
Feel the vibration that is everywhere,
in all of us,
in all things.

I now understand my deep love of music.

-Kathleen Marie Quinn-Farber