Dramatic Exit

I had the most awful scary thought.

You said you were in love with me

that you'd be back the next day.

But you haven't called or text in over a day.

Haven't answered.

I'm getting the silent treatment...

Not even a returned I love you.

You said many things to reassure me that night

While you made your dramatic exit

speaking in metephors

missing only was a background score.

Only this isn't a movie...its my life.

I am able to give time and space

As much as you need

Because I love you.

But a haunting thought lurks...

Were the promises and assurances told only to get out the door?

And is that how easily it can be done?

Just spoken like cold lines in a script...

Then you're gone...

And if so, how will I ever trust again?

-K.M.Q.F.

12/15/14

I Am That Child

I am that child

The one torn between people I love

"Mommy didn't mean that, Daddy"

"Daddy doesn't mean that, Mommy"

Words between people

Situations

Bitter tears

A tragic merry-go-round

Ending in an end.

I am that child

The one listening

but not wanting to hear

The one crying when no one is looking

The crying no one wants to see

or validate

Peacemaking

dragging her feet desperately trying

To make it end.

I am that child

The one smiling

pretending it doesn't hurt

but feeling the sting just the same

Caught in the middle

confused

unsure but sure

loving yet despising

eyes darting to and fro

waiting for an end.

I am that child

Fearful of trusting

yet trusting too much

Exhausted by thrown words

thumbs crammed into ears

The same pain

from long ago

here and now

Like something that never ends.

I am that child

Fragile at heart

feeling betrayed

yet moving on

Seeing what's not spoken

feeling what isn't explained

Allowing the outside

to hurt my inside

In the end.

-K.M.Q.F. 5/17/15

The Glass Wall

There is a glass wall

where people look in

and they see what you say

but dont feel what you feel.

Like a two-way mirror

they think that they know

but they don't really know

what you feel

They are not in your skin

or your heart

or your soul

and they just dont know...

-K.M.Q.F.

5/30/15

FRAGILE

Fragile

like the powdered wing of a butterfly

that crumbles so easily under just the slight touch

of even a gentle fingertip.

Love can be so full of strength...

like a wind that is difficult to walk against,

or a gush of water that pushes your hand away

when all you want is to catch a bit in your palm.

But love is a delicate tapestry

strong,

yet so weak.

Hearts once resilient with youth

grow tattered like a flag flown too long,

And like a tattered flag,

even though meaning so much,

can fall to threads.

Love is a fragile puzzle.

It is different for each of us...

the way it plays out,

the paths it takes.

No one's missing piece will fill the spot in your heart,

and no one's definition

fits your love...

Love is fragile.

It is not to be judged

or solved

or completed

by anyone but you and whom you have in your heart.

To allow anything

or anyone

to force their puzzle piece into your empty place,

means the crumbling of a butterfly wing....

K.M.Q.F

5/23/15

This is Wealth

 I don't care if I'm poor in a monetary sense..

been poor all my life...

it's nothing new. 

But never have I been as rich as I am when writing a poem, 

guiding a wee hand through an arts n craft, 

or listening to my love in the next room strumming a tune and singing. 

These are the things dreams and happiness are made of. 

These are what life is REALLY about. 

This is wealth."
-K.M.Q.F.
5/21/14

Scattered Laundry

...and sometimes I want to just gather him up 

like scattered laundry outside, 

blowing across the yard in the wind...

simply heap all of him in my arms...

take him inside, 

and tell him he is home now...

Stainless Steel Sinks

                                                                        400 years after the final demise of humankind, 

nature will have all but reclaimed its entire earth 

and the only evidence of us left littered across the land 

will be old cell phones 

and stainless steel sinks...