30 MINUTES to 50

In one half hour I will turn (cringe...>*<) 50! My dad passed at 49. I always had this odd feeling I'd die same age as him. This year of 49 has been a beacon-post all of my life. But, I guess the fretting was for naught. It's time to believe in my own beauty, ability, talent. It's time to rock this new decade of my life and make it the best! I'm healthy, have healthy kids, talent in my family and friends, projects begging for my attention, and best of all a youthful feel on the inside and look on the outside. I'm proud of me!! I can do anything!! I love my life and the people in it...especially those who have been a special inspiration to me...I thank you....

HELLO FIFTY!!

K.M.Q.F.

6/27-28/13

CICADA 2013

CICADA 2013

-17 year Cicada renewal

The Cicada nestles in the cool earth

until some mysterious inner body clock

announces time for change.

Time to escape the ground

and make the journey upward,

to shed its skin,

and begin the truly living, but short portion

of its life.

Through song

Love

Metamorphosis,

Partnership

with Mother Earth

and trees,

the ultimate wisdom keepers.

Cicada,

True symbol of renewal,

and dedication to carrying on

through patience and persistence.

-K.M.Q.F.

6/5/13

Fairytale

Like a screenplay...

Like a soundtrack...

Like a song...

Like a sonata...

Like a concert...

Like a movie...

Like a poem...

Like a rhyme...

Like a novel...

Like a fairytale...

6/11/13

In My Mind

And there he was,
my friend, 
scrambling like a school boy,
 trying to both drive, 
pull into the lot,
and haphazardly light candles.
A delicious box,
four cupcakes
graced with white candles.
I could hear music
meant for me to hear, 
but the breeze was so great.
Opening my door
to his presence 
as he stooped, 
palm outward, presenting me.
Choking just a tad
oh emotion
didn't matter what it meant
or how it played out. 
Singing the beginning 
of the birthday song...
for me.
He said it wasn't what his vision was...
it didn't play out
as planned.
Didn't matter to me at all.
In my mind...
there was no trying to drive,
no wind.
There was someone,
a friend,
a man,
who yes, I care for...

In my mind
he pulled in like a rock star,
a tad on an angle,
windows down,
"In Da Club" resonating...
Happy Birthday...
jumping out
four cupcakes ablaze
like the fire
in my heart
at that moment.
Palm out
presenting...
Stepping out
hearing Happy Birthday
a tune...
No matter what the reality appeared...
it really appeared
in my heart...
so special...
in my mind...

K.M.Q.F.
6/28/13

METAPHOR

Metaphor

Warm night,

moist air,

heavy with the thought

of such a simple thing,

it hangs near the roadway 

like mist,

clusters of anticipation

just to see someone,

to feel a hug,

nestle my face for an instant

in the warmth

only found there.

The car slices through the fog

as we go;

happy chatter,

my heart racing nearer as we get.

Smiles,

greetings,

casual touch...

He tells me later in passing,

he could see my very heart

pounding through my shirt...

a metaphor,

surely...

but just the same...

he was correct...

K.M.Q.F.

6/26/13

Half way,
half world,
not all there
not ready,
but heart invested...
at least SOME.
I'm hiding me;
please dont see...
can't live up...
(what I feel)
dumb I know
cuz if its true...
me n you...
I already know
and feel
you would grab my wrist...
even if it hurt like hell,
and drag me thru.,...
thru fire and brimstone...
thats what i get
from what you say
but its so juxtaposed...
unusual..
you might hate me...
maybe others too...
but gotta say...
you aren't my enemy
in fact
I think I might love you! Someone plz save me from this dive into a lake...
one that could drown me...
or give me life.....

k.m.q.f.
6/18/13

DADDY...

Daddy...

peering at a photo...
long time passed...
little girl...
daddy
missing you...
face close to mine
still feel your warm breath
on my cheek
bedtime...
light scent of bath bubbles
mom reads a story
but its you I await
cuddle-time...
itchy robe...
curlers hurting
(mom loves curls)
you nestle my head
in the pillow
taking pain away
"close your eyes"
I do....
wish you were here still today
to nestle away
my pain...

K.M.Q.F.
6/15/13